Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Life After 44 Years In Prison

Even though I've been out in the world while this man was in prison for the past 44 yrs. and I've witnessed the changes, experienced, adopted and adapted well to them, like him I'm still extremely aware of the changes, I still sit and observe as if I was only a witness. I use them in my life, take full advantage of the things that now exist, don't resist them, but don't necessarily like them either.

I don't believe life is better because of the changes, 7.3 billion people on Earth and too many of them all alone. More illnesses, more crime, a broader gap between rich and poor, less empathy, less direct communication, more distance between humans in general.

People studying, shopping, dating and traveling through a computer instead of going out and re-connecting and when they do re-connect, even unite for a cause, it's only to fight someone else who doesn't see things through their perspective.

We are living longer so it's just more time we have to crave someone to love and be loved in return, someone who cares, someone who needs you to be there, while so many others get love and reject it.

I hope I can meet this man one day, I'd love to be his good friend and have him feel loved again.

Hugs xoxo


Friday, November 6, 2015

Fear Not, Resist Not, Judge Not...

Akashik Prayer

"Divine, Spirit, Source, please move me into a state of forgiveness towards anyone or anything that has hurt me, consciously or unconsciously, from the beginning of time to this present moment. I now forgive them and I release the energy of the past. 

Divine, Spirit, Source, please move me into a state of forgiveness towards myself for any hurt that I have caused others, consciously or unconsciously, from the beginning of time to this present moment. I now forgive myself and I release the energy of the past. 

Divine, Spirit, Source, please move me into a state of forgiveness towards myself for any hurt that I have caused myself, consciously or unconsciously, from the beginning of time to this present moment. I now forgive myself and release the energy of the past.

I invoke the Grace and power of Forgiveness to transform my body, mind, and heart as I return to a state of Divine Innocence. And so it is!"

Hugs xoxo

Sunday, November 1, 2015

I turned into you Mom...

It's always been said that the older we get the more we know and that's mostly because we have lived longer, have had more exposure to life and the ability to perceive experiences that we have had more than once differently. But that's only if you manage to perceive them differently the second, third, etc. time around.

My mom was an Angel but she didn't give herself that chance to perceive her experiences differently so she suffered a lot and that's one thing I didn't want for myself so I've lived a very different life than hers, made different decisions; but there are some things that I used to criticize my mom when I was younger and in these last few years I've been noticing that I am now adopting them as well.

Like wearing polyester clothes for their stretchability and comfort, not to mention comfortable shoes, wiping the shower when I'm done bathing, or saving the plastic bags from the grocery store to reuse them to line the garbage cans, doubled and all individually wrapped and storing them in the dishwasher that I never use because I much rather wash the dishes by hand.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and see my mom and not me staring back. I also see in my interaction with my children some of the same traits that I had with her and it makes me wish I had her around right now that I'm able to see those actions through her eyes and experience them through her perception. I wonder if my children will experience the same thing one day with their children and look back and see it the way I can now.

This reminds me that if I see something in someone else that I don't particularly like, I better look for it in myself. All I know is that no matter how many times I criticized some of the things that you did, I turned into you Mom...

My love to everyone

Hugs xoxo

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Perception is The KEY!!!...

The Universe gives us all the options, but I believe its our "Perception" of it all that makes our reality seem either as an adventure or a nightmare.

One of the most amazing things I experience in my place of work is that I come across so many people in any given day and for an unknown reason some perceive me as one to tell their story to and I love to listen to people's stories. Find it fascinating how each one of us can perceive life so different.

Like the other day for example, this woman walks into my store and while looking at a bracelet she says "ever since my son died I don't like to buy any jewelry". So of course I immediately think she needs someone to listen, so I listen.

She spent maybe 10 mins. telling me her story and I believe that if a stranger trusts me enough to open up and all I have is 2 mins. to make a difference in their "Perception" of it so perhaps they can allow for more joy to come back in their lives you better believe I will take those 2 mins. and give it my best shot.

By the time she left the store the gleam in her eyes had changed. She hugged, thanked and blessed me and for that moment I felt blessed and grateful. Now at least she can see a different side of what happened to her, look at her life now and focus on the great things she has which came out of her difficult experience.

Happiness is and always will be a decision, and Perception is The KEY!!!...

Hugs xoxo

Saturday, January 24, 2015

The day of your birth....

They say you chose when to make an entrance into this existence and what you need to experience.  To quote a good article worth reading Did you ask to be born?

"So the Torah reveals to us this amazing secret: that ultimate choice was made by us, before we even existed. Before G-d emanated your soul and breathed it into your body, you were asked if you should be. So in every situation in which you find yourself, in every challenge you face in your life ~ you are there because you chose to be placed in that life.

We go through life complaining, "I didn't ask to be born...!" But a thousand times a day we refute that claim. With countless choices and actions, we affirm that the life we have is the life we want.

Of course we do. After all, we chose it." The life we have is the life we want"

So what that means to me is that I must be grateful for every person, experience, adventure, those who care about me and even those who don't; so I figured that if that's how I'm supposed to be and I resist any part of it, I'm not allowing it to be what is and living with resistance is not a fun thing.

Today I had no idea how we were going to celebrate and now that the day is about to end I couldn't have planned a better day for myself if I spent months doing it. It was simple and meaningful, my kind of day.

I'm grateful for my existence, I love celebrating the day of my birth because I chose it and because I chose to be me and all that I am and experience.

Thank you all who make my life special, to the the loves of my life, my beautiful children and my husband, to all my family, friends, acquaintances, colleagues, neighbors, co-workers and strangers who made this day and every day special.

Thank you to me for choosing to be.

My love to y'all,

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

SMILE!!! and the whole world smiles at you...

There isn't one thing that I've found that is more powerful than a smile.

   ~ It helps overcome obstacles

   ~ Opens new doors

   ~ It's important in our daily lives

   ~ The most effective method of non-verbal communication

   ~ It's contagious

   ~ A sign of hospitality and confidence

   ~ Helps gain people's trust

   ~ Brightens up your mood

   ~ Triggers smiles in others around you

   ~ The most sincere gift you can give

   ~ And its FREE!!!

So what are you waiting for? 


Hugs xoxo


Saturday, July 26, 2014


"No arruines lo que tienes
deseando lo que no tienes.
Y recuerda que lo que ahora tienes,
fué en su momento 
entre las cosas que tu anhelabas"

Reminding myself to be grateful for what I have..

How grateful are you?

Hugs xoxo

Monday, May 5, 2014

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

And the winner is....

I believe "LIFE is a GAME", we come here to play the game and the winner is the one who manages to have the MOST FUN!! no matter what challenges we have at any moment. I also believe that if we are having fun no matter what our circumstances are, we attract MAGIC and with that we can change our experience, so you can discard the experiences that are not helping you in the FUN department and replace them with the ones that do, the best that you can with what you have.

Children come with that knowledge and that's why they act the way they do. But somehow along the way adults teach them how to halt the fun for the right time, as if there is a right time for us to enjoy and a time to stop enjoying, we shame each other for enjoying too much sometimes, have you noticed?

Don't run, don't scream, don't laugh so loud, don't play right now, don't trust, don't give, don't receive. Then we take all that we can't do along with us throughout our lives and as we experience fear, pain, sorrow, stress, lack, jealousy, resentment, etc. etc. along the path, we forget what it was like to just have fun.

We obviously don't want to believe that its all about that because if we did we would act accordingly. We would all be helping each other instead of competing against one another.

I was watching the video of this little girl. She must have been so enlightened in her past life that look at where she started in this one. See it for yourselves. But pay attention to the FUN part. She can probably make more money than most of the population of the world but she is having so much fun that my guess is that the money doesn't even cross her mind. She looks relaxed, confident, charming, very bright and she beams. And why is she having fun???? Because she loves what she does and it shows in everything she does, the way she looks and what she says.

Come on people lets wake up and start caring about each other. Do something every day to show a stranger that you care without expecting anything in return. If it works for you the way it does for me, you will become so enamored with the results when you see that you made a difference in a stranger's life even if its just by gifting them with a smile. And that's an addiction I don't mind having.

Hugs and kisses to everyone out there...

Go show someone you care ;)


Monday, December 30, 2013

"Auld Lang Syne"

So it's that time of year all over again, so it's out with the old and in with the new, so what will that mean for me I wonder!? I get goosebumps just thinking about the possibilities, how scary but how exciting at the same time. So much happens in just one day what will a year from now be like.

Now that I'm living 'The Adventure' with Love by my side... next stop... THE STARS!!!

Happy New Year Everyone! May all your dreams come true.

@nit@ xoxo
Y llegó este día una vez más, un nuevo adiós a lo viejo y una bienvenida a lo nuevo. Me pregunto lo que significará para mi!? se me enchina la piel de solo pensar en las posibilidades, es como una emoción de temor y al mismo tiempo entusiasmo. Tanto sucede en un solo día, que no sucederá en un Año.

Ahora que estoy viviendo 'La Aventura' con mi Amor al lado... próxima parada... LAS ESTRELLAS!!!

Felíz Año Nuevo a TODOS!!! Que sus sueños se vuelvan realidad...

Con amor,
@nit@ xoxo

Thursday, December 19, 2013

I Wanna Wish YOU a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my Heart...

A todos los que son parte de mi vida y a todos los que no son...
To those of you who are part of my life and all of you who aren't..

Les deseo una Muy Felíz Navidad desde el fondo de mi corazón
 I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart

Abrazos xoxo


Friday, November 29, 2013

The Real Secret to a Perfect Relationship...

It's "Containment"!!! There I said it. So what do I mean you say? I compare it to a fine perfume inside a beautiful bottle, you don't want a bottle which cap opens wide because it lets out all the scent and if you leave it like that it loses a lot of it, not to mention that the scent is too strong, unlike when you just spritz it lightly on your body to enhance and please your senses.

Life presents challenges every single day, and the more we develop as a species the greater the challenges. Just on a regular day he/she comes home and is tired, either sat at an office surrounded by co-workers of all types and personalities, or his/her work is physical or mental, might be all day on the streets fighting traffic or helping people, encountering tons of challenges and all he/she wants to do is go home to his/her refuge and be with you. Maybe he/she wants to share his/her day maybe not. So he/she gets home and you've been dealing with your own day to day challenges, sometimes less sometimes more, but it's life and stuff happens all the time.

No matter what our lives are like or what we go through in a day, its just that, a day, and you can only deal with what you are equipped to deal with and sometimes we are either not well equipped or have too much on our plate so we open that cap wide and let out the 'Monster' that lives inside of us and we need someone who loves us unconditionally to help contain that 'Monster Within'. Not to judge, criticize, analyze, fix, or even label it, but simply to help us contain it until we recover our balance and our harmony once again.

I don't believe there is any "Free Will", yes we choose who we marry but can we choose what he/she will do on any certain day? we can decide to have kids, but can we choose what they make of themselves? we can choose our careers, jobs and our friends, but that's about where the "Free Will" begins and ends because outside of our choices there are all these circumstances that are totally out of our control that can make our choices either succeed or fail, so for me what works is having someone to LOVE unconditionally who wants to be loved and LOVES me in return the same way, so much so, that is willing to help me contain my 'Monster Within'.

Make sure the partner you chose to share this life adventure with is helping you contain that monster instead of being the one who opens the cap and lets it escape, look inside and see if you're not the one who awakens theirs, be more selfless and help them become a better version of themselves, be brave, caring and do something about it. It is worth every effort you make.

Are you containing each other with LOVE!?

Hugs xoxo

Sunday, November 10, 2013

What Happiness Isn't...

I think there are only two ways that you can look at life, as "Challenging and Painful" or as a "Happy Adventure" the situation could be the same for two individuals and one will perceive it as the first and the other as the second. So does that mean that our happiness depends on the perception we have of our lives rather than what happens in them?

We all have different values, wants, needs, realities, experiences, but should we start paying more attention to our perception rather than to what's outside? Is that what the spiritual leaders refer to as "Going inside oneself?"

I have lived it and seen it both ways, and every now and then I still experience anguish, fear and pain, but now I learned how to "Go inside myself" accept what is and change my perception.

But what if you don't seem to be getting the results you were expecting, or there are difficult and painful situations on the road to your dreams, you worked so hard at getting something only to see it fade or get taken away, you were about to reach the stars and failed, you are used to getting everything and then one day difficult challenges come your way, you wish you had made different choices, should you put Happiness on hold then until you get what you are looking for? and what if you get what you were hoping for and you're not happy then, or if you change your dreams to something else. Should the efforts you put into the things that in the end didn't work be considered a waste?

Happiness is always there even in very challenging situations because its not tied to an individual, a situation, an event, a possession, knowledge or preparation. It's not a thing we can mold or purchase, it's a decision we have to make by changing our perception.

I don't like the feeling of fear or pain anymore than anyone else, but I'm grateful to them because they allow me to exercise my perception.

What if we started today to take responsibility over our own reality and stop blaming everyone and everything else? What if we "Go inside ourselves and change our perception" give the other side of the coin a chance to shine now and then?

I believe our happiness is our responsibility! Are you taking it?

Much love xoxo

Thursday, October 24, 2013

Sacale las piedras a tu mochila ...

Todos llevamos cargando una mochila en nuestras espaldas, la llenamos de piedras, libros, golpes, regalos, drogas, comida, oro, latón, logros, perdidas, risas, llantos, temor y de amor. Si tuvimos la buena fortuna de haber nacido en una familia unida y rodeados de cosas materiales, talentos, abundancia y más que nada amor, pueda ser que esa mochila no pese tanto como la de alguien que nazca con todo lo difícil y nada de lo agradable, de lo fácil, pero todos cargamos un peso y no importa que tan pesado, a nosotros nos pesa como si fuera el más pesado. Podemos tratar de ponernos en los zapatos de los demás, pero a menos de que estuviéramos dentro de esos zapatos no podemos comprender como el otro lo percibe.

A lo largo de mi vida he conocido a gente con retos enormes que no tienen ni tiempo ni deseo de quejarse sino se enfocan en cómo van a cruzar al otro lado del río para evitar que la corriente arrase con ellos, otros que con retos menores se paralizan y dejan que la corriente se los lleve hasta el final, dejan de creer en la posibilidad de ser felices y se dejan morir en vida lentamente hasta que el cuerpo agarra la onda y deja de trabajar. Otros que lo tienen todo y nunca se sacian, siempre están en búsqueda de más, critican a los demás sin darse cuenta de que es precisamente lo que están criticando lo que no les gusta en sí mismos, dejan de valorar lo que tienen y se vuelven vanos y amargados.

Yo insisto que los humanos vivimos la vida de una manera inconsciente, porque si supiéramos que nuestras acciones y pensamientos son los que más daño nos causan, no creen que haríamos todo lo que está en nuestras manos por cambiar la manera en que actuamos y pensamos?

Yo tomé la decisión hace 10 años de exponer mi vida no porque me importa lo que piensen los demás, sino porque me tomó 50 años entender que "La Vida no es lo que te sucede, sino lo que haces con lo que te sucede". He pasado por tantos retos que si otros lo ven desde afuera dirían pobre mujer, pero yo no lo percibo de esa manera para nada, sino todo lo contrario. Yo me siento honrada de estar viviendo mi vida, protegida por algo más grande que yo que me cuida de mi misma, agradecida por las oportunidades que se me han presentado, contenta con lo que he logrado y entusiasmada cada día que pasa con todas las posibilidades de lo que me depara. No es que ya no tenga retos, lo que pasa es que una vez que cruzas el río y logras percibir tu propia vida desde el otro lado, ya no puedes jamás volverla a ver como la veías antes.

Yo escribo porque a mí me llevó 50 años tomar el riesgo de cruzar el río y desde éste lado, el agua se ve de muchos colores de turquesa, fluye calmada y constante, es potable, fresca y continúa presentandome oportunidades de lograr todos esos sueños como los muchos que he logrado.

Sácale las piedras a tu mochila y llénala de sueños y va a llegar un momento en que la mochila te va a cargar a tí y te vas a sentir como que estás flotando. Esa es la libertad, cuando no resistes a nada y agradeces lo que la vida te da. Todo te llega por algo...

Que haces tú con lo que la vida te da?

Abrazos xoxo

Monday, October 7, 2013

Are you ready to turn the page?

"Let yourself move to the next chapter in life when the time comes.
Don't remain stuck on the same page!" 
~Graham Kean~ Life Mastery

"Déjate pasar al capítulo siguiente en tu vida cuando llegue el momento.
No te quedes atrapado en la misma página!"
~Graham Kean~ Life Mastery

Are you at least getting ready to turn the page?
Al menos te estás preparando para darle vuelta a la página?

Hugs xoxo
Abrazos xoxo


Sunday, September 22, 2013

You don't need to look for LOVE anywhere...

"You don't need to look for LOVE anywhere..


It's always there, everywhere..."
~ @nit@ ~

"No necesitas buscar AMOR en ninguna parte...
Siempre está ahí, en todas partes..."
~ @nit@

Hugs xoxo

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Experts at 'LOVE'

I don't know how many times, in how many places, through how many people I have heard and read that we are all supposed to be 'ONE". The way I see it we are like the ocean. If you take a globe and turn it upside down so as to see the South Pole, you can tell it is just 'ONE' Ocean, I don't care what part of the world you're at and what color and temperature is your water, its just 'ONE' Ocean, in all its magnitude and glory,  it just gets diverted by land. That's exactly how I see us, 'ONE BEING' divided by mind, by EGO.

Even if we wanted to think about it in a selfish way, doesn't it make sense that we should just try to give 'LOVE' since we are giving it to the 'Being' that we are a part of?

I was told by expert oceanographers that if you throw anything into the ocean anywhere it affects all of the Ocean since its just 'ONE', so why do we all keep on affecting each other instead of just giving 'LOVE',  I think if we invested as much time giving love as we do in trying to be better, richer, more powerful, more knowledgeable and try to identify with all that, we would become "Experts at LOVE' and then we can identify with that and be proud. I think it takes less effort, the results are always more fun, we have more to look forward to in our day instead of everybody being so stressed out. I personally don't know of anyone who is not somewhat stressed out, no matter what their status in life. And if you ask me I think the more you have, the more you have to be stressed about.

Yesterday was the 'Day of Atonement' in my religion and I'd like to say sorry to whomever I hurt with any of my words or actions. It's a time to take conscience of just that and time to try harder to become "Experts at LOVE'.

My LOVE and GRATITUDE to everyone out there. 

Hugs xoxo


Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Are you BEING HAPPY?...

" Those who have not found their true wealth which is the radiant joy of Being and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth.'

~ Eckhart Tolle ~

Make the decision of 'Being Happy' no matter what!!!

Hugs xoxo

Friday, August 9, 2013

I wish you enough...

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirits alive and everlasting.
I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."

~Unknown~ (part of a short story)

I wish you enough!...

Hugs xoxo

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

"La edad es un número y yo no soy buena en matemáticas"...

Como les digo a mis hijos "La edad es un número y yo nunca he sido buena en matemáticas". Yo vivo mi vida como una 'Aventura' y tú, cómo vives la tuya?

Abrazos xoxo

La Sexalescencia 

Si miramos con cuidado podemos detectar la aparición de una franja social que antes no existía: la gente que hoy tiene alrededor de sesenta años:
LA SEXALESCENCIA. Es una generación que ha echado fuera del idioma la palabra "sexagenario", porque sencillamente no tiene entre sus planes actuales la posibilidad de envejecer. Se trata de una verdadera novedad demográfica parecida a la aparición en su momento, de la "adolescencia", que también fue una franja social nueva que surgió a mediados del S. XX para dar identidad a una masa de niños desbordados, en cuerpos creciditos, que no sabían hasta entonces dónde meterse, ni cómo vestirse. 
Este nuevo grupo humano que hoy ronda 
los sesenta o setenta, ha llevado una vida razonablemente satisfactoria. Son hombres y mujeres independientes que trabajan desde hace mucho tiempo y han logrado cambiar el significado tétrico que tanta literatura latinoamericana le dio durante décadas al concepto del trabajo. Lejos de las tristes oficinas, muchos de ellos  buscaron y encontraron hace mucho la actividad que más le gustaba y se ganan la vida con eso. Supuestamente debe ser por esto que se sienten plenos; algunos ni sueñan con jubilarse. Los que ya se han jubilado disfrutan con plenitud de cada uno de sus días sin temores al ocio o a la soledad, crecen desde adentro. Disfrutan el ocio, porque después de años de trabajo, crianza de hijos, carencias, desvelos y sucesos fortuitos bien vale mirar el mar con la mente vacía o ver volar una paloma desde el 5º piso del departamento. 
Dentro de ese universo de personas saludables, curiosas y activas, la mujer tiene un papel rutilante.
 Ella trae décadas de experiencia de hacer su voluntad, cuando sus madres habían sido educadas a obedecer y ahora pueden ocupar lugares en la sociedad que sus madres ni habrían soñado en ocupar. 
Esta mujer sexalescente pudo sobrevivir a la borrachera de poder que le dio el feminismo de los 60′, en aquellos momentos de su juventud en los que los cambios eran tantos, pudo detenerse a reflexionar qué quería en realidad. Algunas se fueron a vivir solas, otras estudiaron carreras que siempre habían sido exclusivamente masculinas, algunas estudiaron una carrera universitaria junto con la de sus hijos, otras eligieron tener hijos a temprana edad, fueron periodistas, atletas o crearon su propio "YO, S.A.". Este tipo de mujeres nacidas en los 50s. no son ni por equivocación las clásicas "suegras" que quieren que los hij/as les estén llamando todos los días, porque ellas tienen su propia vida y ya no viven a través de la vida de los hijos. Su camino no ha sido fácil y todavía lo van diseñando cotidianamente. 
Pero algunas cosas ya pueden darse por sabidas, por ejemplo que no son personas detenidas en el tiempo; la gente de "sesenta o setenta"", hombres y mujeres, maneja la compu como si lo hubiera hecho toda la vida. Se escriben, y se ven, con los hijos que están lejos y hasta se olvidan del viejo teléfono para contactar a sus amigos y les escriben un e-mail con sus ideas y vivencias. Por lo general están satisfechos de su estado civil y si no lo están, no se conforman y procuran cambiarlo. Raramente se deshacen en un llanto sentimental. A diferencia de los jóvenes; los sexalescentes conocen y ponderan todos los riesgos. Nadie se pone a llorar cuando pierde: sólo reflexiona, toma nota, a lo sumo… y a otra cosa. 
La gente mayor comparte la devoción por la juventud y sus formas superlativas, casi insolentes de belleza, pero no se sienten en retirada. Compiten de otra forma, cultivan su propio estilo… Ellos, los varones no envidian la apariencia de jóvenes astros del deporte, o de los que lucen un traje Armani, ni ellas, las mujeres, sueñan con tener la figura tuneada de una vedette. En lugar de eso saben de la importancia de una mirada cómplice, de una frase inteligente o de una sonrisa iluminada por la experiencia. 
Hoy la gente de 60 o 70, como es su costumbre, está estrenando una edad que todavía NO TIENE NOMBRE, antes los de esa edad eran viejos y hoy ya no lo son, hoy están plenos física e intelectualmente, recuerdan la juventud, pero sin nostalgias, porque la juventud también está llena de caídas y nostalgias y ellos lo saben. La gente de 60 y 70 de hoy celebra el Sol cada mañana y sonríe para sí misma muy a menudo…hacen planes con su propia vida, no con la de los demás. Quizás por alguna razón secreta que sólo saben y sabrán los del siglo XXI.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Friendship Day vs Groundhog Day

Why is it that we have to have a special day during the year to celebrate 'Friendship' or mothers, or fathers, children, doctors, teachers, grandparents, secretaries, mailmen, bosses, etc. etc. etc.... I say leave the special day celebrations for 'Groundhogs' they deserve a special day since otherwise not many would even know they exist. Why can't we make everyone with whom we interact everyday feel special no matter which hat they happen to be wearing that day? Can you even imagine what it would be like if everyone did that?

To all of my friends "May you have a Happy Friendship Day EVERYDAY!" and to all the rest "May you be made to feel special by someone EVERYDAY!"

We're all special in our own way. Feel it!

Hugs xoxo

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Take it from a dreamer...

Dare to Dream BIG! it takes the same effort and the results are what you allow them to be!

May all of your dreams come true!

Hugs xoxo

Thursday, July 11, 2013

La Madrastra del Cuento

Estoy segura de que habrá algún ‘Cuento de Hadas’ que yo no haya leído en el que ‘La Madrastra’ no sea la mala pero digámos que al menos en la mayoría La Madrastra lo es; la que quiere a toda costa deshacerse de sus hijastros para acaparar la atención de su nueva pareja toda para ella y los suyos. 

Bueno pues mi cuento es todo lo opuesto y me da un enorme placer y orgullo poder lograr que así sea.

Si me quisiera remontar al principio del cuento sería muy largo, así que remontemonos solamente al 19 de Junio del año pasado, hace poco más de un año. Ese día abrí mi computadora como lo hago a diario, me entretengo con muchas cosas diferentes, escribo, escucho música, veo películas, platico con amigos y por lo general al final del día se nos ha formado el ábito de leer nuestro Horoscopo del día para ver que tan acertado estaba después de que ya el día se desenvolvió. Yo había encontrado un sitio en el que me parecía que el hombre que lo escribe me estaba escribiendo a mi, como podía ser que en casi todo le acertaba. Este día en particular recuerdo que estaba yo sola viviendo mi aventura de vida a mi manera y deseando compartirla con alguien, lo que no sabía que lo que no estaba haciendo bien era ‘Creer ciegamente en El Final Felíz’. Ese día algo me latió y entré a contestar un cuestionario en el sitio de Horoscopos que llevo leyendo a diario por años y nunca me había llamado antes la atención hacer un estudio un poquito más completo y el cuestionario era acerca de mi futuro en el Amor, que era algo que yo mantenía muy latente y aunque siempre creí que me llegaría de nuevo, debo admitir que después de 10 años de estar viviendo la aventura sola de vez en cuando llegan rafagas de dudas y hay que mantenerlas alejadas con cualquier distracción.

Esa noche mi distracción fué ese cuestionario para que me dijera de acuerdo a mis estrellas que debía yo de esperar y lo que leí me ayudó a recobrar esa fé en que todo llega exactamente cuando tiene que llegar y no antes.

Decía que dentro de los próximos 10 meses a partir de ese día, yo me iba a topar con el hombre y la relación que me han estado eludiendo por los últimos 10 años, que iba a estar lo más divertida y enamorada que he estado, que ésta unión sería para siempre y que la única manera en la que esto pudiese NO suceder, es si yo decidía continuar actuando y percibiendo los sucesos de la misma manera que lo había hecho antes, así que me dí a la tarea de la noche a la mañana y me dije ‘suelta y solo siente y cree, no resistas’ y así me pasé los siguientes 10 meses. 

Ni hablar de todos los cambios que tuve que hacer de YA, todas las experiencias que tuve, pero los siguientes 10 meses fueron como ir a la Feria a diario, uno de mis lugares favoritos en el mundo. Algunos días me tenía que subir a la montaña rusa cerrar los ojos y agarrarme de donde pudiera para no sentir que me iba a voltear y al día siguiente salía por el tunel del amor. No faltaron las veces que comía tanto algodón con (azucar con pintura artificial) y corn dogs que me empachaba y me quería salir corriendo de la feria, pero yo de ahí no me moví hasta que pasaron los 10 meses porque yo le creí a ese horoscopo y le iba a dar chance a que me comprobara lo que decía hasta el último día. El Universo me hizo el favor de enviarme una fecha exacta y solo eran 10 meses más. Después de 10 años, pensé yo, que son 10 meses más.

Llega el 31 de Marzo de éste año y yo me estaba empezando a cansar en la feria, sin saber que día me tocaba el tunel del amor, o los corn dogs con algodón de azucar, o peor aún la montaña rusa, yo ya quería mi “Final Felíz’ tal como me lo prometió el horoscopo y yo le creí. Me dí cuenta de que cuando uno se empieza a desesperar es porque empiezas a dejar de creer y al dejar de creer, dejas de crear.

El 31 de Marzo me volví ‘La Novia’ de mi compañero de feria y el 25 de Junio nos convertímos en marido y mujer y me enorgullece ser parte de las familias Aliano y Strambi. En mi cuento yo prometo hacer el rol de la buena como la nuera, cuñada, hermana, amiga, prima, sobrina, tía y sobre todo en mi rol de “La Madrastra”. Les doy a todos mi agradecimiento por el cariño que me han demostrado, trataré de seguir siendo merecedora de él. Y para agregarle a la alegría que sentímos yo todavía tengo en vida a mi papá, quien comparte nuestra felicidad, y mi mamá bueno ella decidió que ya estaba cansada de la feria y se nos adelantó pero estoy segura de que está gozando todo lo que observa desde el mirador. A mi adorada familia, mis hijos a quienes llevo a todo instante en el alma, el papá de mis hijos y su esposa y mi amiga, Los quiero a todos mucho.

Así que como yo lo veo ahora que tengo mi “Final Felíz”, nosotros somos los que creamos nuestro propio ‘Cuento de Hadas’, escribimos nuestra propia historia con la intensidad de nuestros deseos y la fuerza con la que podémos mantener nuestra creencia de lograrlos sin importarnos los retos que se nos presentan en ‘La Feria’. 

Acabo de abrir una galleta china y el papelito decía “Un evento dramático te llevará pronto a obtener una fortuna” me pregunto en cuantos meses? 

El cuento continuará...

Con amor,

Sunday, February 17, 2013

The mistakes we make along the way and the lessons they teach us...

It was exactly 10 yrs. ago give or take a couple of weeks that I found myself making the biggest and most difficult decision that I’ve had to make my whole life, that of destroying the family that it took me a lifetime of blood, sweat, tears, losses, so many emotions, so much work and effort and yet it all seemed effortless because the love and joy that came along with it. Something happens along the way and the joy starts turning into pain, and when the pain becomes greater you need to make a decision as difficult as it may be. You need to take advantage of the pain in order to grow and become a better version of yourself on the other side. We don’t have any control over what anybody else says or does so we have the responsibility to take control of our lives and our happiness in order to be that person that overflows joy and thus able to give it to those you love, otherwise you don’t have anything to give.

That decision I took wound up changing the lives of MANY people, not to mention those I’ve encountered in my path these past ten years. I don’t even want to think about the decisions I’ve taken that have turned into disasters, although I really don’t think it could have been any different. If I were allowed to pick all the ‘mistakes’ I’ve made along the way and fix them, it doesn’t give me any guarantees that the end result would be a better one, different for sure but not necessarily better.

I was just looking at a little video my daughter took in our cute little townhouse her and I were renting at the moment. I was having so many challenges at the time, my mom was dying and I couldn’t even take care of her because of all the challenges I was dealing with, and I was working full time on top of it. People started feeling the right to talk about me, to judge me but nobody came to ask if I needed any help except for my daughter, she could see what my life was really like and could spot the mistakes I was making that at the time I couldn’t see. 

One day she came to me with the idea that I must have a dog. Well I've had dogs for MANY years, my daughter being an animal lover brought home all sorts of critters as well but the presence of a dog was always there, we had four at one point, and I suffered every time I lost one as if it was my child, not to mention the care they require so I immediately said ‘NO MORE DOGS FOR ME’I was free to do anything, go anywhere, why would I want to tie myself again with a dog, but she managed somehow to convince me and looked for the one she knew I would not be able to resist and found it. She was a 4 wk. old Maltepoo (maltese/poodle) mix that looked just like the most beautiful stuffed animal with an adorable personality on top of it. 

First we named her Sydney but for some reason it just didn’t stick and every time I wanted to call her I would think ‘Which city in Australia was it?’ jaja so after a few times that happened we decided to change her name to Chloe and that was definitely a perfect fit. And that wasn’t it, she was smart, happy, cuddly, and she was born on the same day my daughter was born, March 20th, my two blondies were now living with me. My daughter loving dogs as much as she does would play with her, and she is a great and patient trainer, so before long Chloe was dancing on two feet while turning in circles, she would sit for a long time watching TV, sit, lie, crawl was a given  and our daily long walks through the park where I would find places to set her free to run and chase the ball or run after my daughter were the joy of the day. 

And then one day that all would end, first my daughter left for college and Chloe and I stayed back alone, my life routine turned boring and the challenges kept on coming, then the desire to move on became so strong that it must have put a blinder on my intuition. 

It was a Saturday I remember that much, I was sitting at a restaurant that looked like the soda fountain shops from ‘Happy Days' waiting for my son to come out of a class. I had been doing that every Saturday and Sunday for months. I’d drive him there and go to this place that was next to a Movie Studio and sit there for a couple of hrs. to read or write while I waited for him. One of those Saturdays I called my niece in Israel and she suggested why not move to Israel for a while and something lit up inside instantly, I remember saying to her “Yeah, why don’t I”

The process turned out to be quite a bit more difficult and lengthy than I thought it would be, I had to become an Israeli citizen in order to receive all the benefits and that took me 6 months to achieve. Then I had to make sure that my father was going to be cared for, I had a leased car, a townhouse full of furniture and stored all the memories of my past in the garage, that all had to be tended to. Some decisions I made here were not the best I could have made but at the time was all I was able to manage on my own. 

And then came Chloe, I never thought that would be the one thing that would turn out to hurt me the most. I had already given away so many priced possessions and was almost ready to go and then found out that I had to jump through more hoops to take Chloe with me, another 2 month delay. I didn’t even know what living in Israel would mean for me, where would I live, work, etc. My daughter of course pushed for me to take her that it would be a great mistake on my part to leave her, and gave me very valid reasons but I was getting so exhausted and so restless and ready to leave that I took the energy I had left, decided to take the shortest route and left Chloe behind with a great young woman to have an even better life than I was giving her, and I went out to look for a better life for me. 

I saw Chloe once more just before I left and she was already different, she had been totally shaved and my furball looked thin without the fur, she was happy to see me but just as happy to get back with her new mommy and the woman who said no more dogs before my daughter convinced me of getting Chloe now has Diego, the companion I picked up off the streets of Tel-Aviv, a partially blind mutt, without too many teeth and all gray around the face, and gave him a chance at a better life like so many along the way did for me. We bring each other as much joy and companionship as Chloe and I did.

Life is to be lived, not regretted, I look back at the last 10 yrs. and I’m not sure there is anything I would change because isn’t the end result what’s really important? What I remember the most about my life adventure are all those moments that once made me cry as my fondest memories and highest accomplishments. 

I must definitely keep on coming back to the Geiser in Tecozautla, this place is magical for me, anything can happen here, this time I even brought Diego, from the Streets of Ramat Gan to the Geiser in Tecozautla, no doubt life is a miracle. Anything can happen, And now I’m outta here ‘Attracting Dreams!’

May you attract all of yours too.

Much love everyone xoxo
Anita and Diego ;)

Thursday, January 3, 2013

What kind of cheese are you?...

Like I say to my kids when they ask me "When will you grow up Mom?"

"Life is but a number, and I was NEVER very good at math!" ^_^

Just feel free to be a kid, no one is watching ;)

Love hugs xoxo

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Hoy es lo Unico que Hay...

Como explicar lo que es mi vida si ni siquiera yo la entiendo. Ultimamente me he topado con muchos jóvenes que al parecer necesitan que los guiemos cuando en realidad son ellos los que más saben. Los adultos mientras más aporreados más débiles, enojados, deprimidos, agresivos, mentirosos, obsesivos, en fin, hasta con sociópatas me he topado.

Yo ya no puedo ni podré volver a ver jamás la vida como la veía antes, es como si estuviera viviendo en otro planeta en el que las reglas son diferentes. Ahora sí que "ESTACIONADA PARALELO EN UN MUNDO PERPENDICULAR!"

Que parte de que el pasado no existe, ni nunca existirá no entendemos? No importa lo que haya pasado YA ESTA!!! solo existe en nuestro recuerdo y cuidado con esos recuerdos, como sabemos si lo que recordamos es cierto cuando hay tantísimas vivencias que hemos tenido que no recordamos y que importa si lo que recordamos fue real si no hay nada que podamos hacer ni por cambiarlo ni por volver el tiempo atrás para volverlo a vivir.

Todavía entiendo un poco más el planear para el futuro, eso se vale porque nos da una guía a seguir de lo que quisiéramos lograr, metas a seguir, pero igual y no existe ni nunca existirá, porque cuando llegue mañana será hoy y mañana nunca llegará. No importa cuantas veces lo que habían planeado se les logró, igual y podía no haberse logrado y nunca lo sabemos hasta que pasa.

Yo no se ustedes pero yo no soy nadie sin los demás. Los demás son los que me hacen. No me imagino un mundo para mi solita aunque lo tuviera todo. De donde yo derivo mi felicidad es de dar. Si yo me mantengo siempre dando nunca me falta porque siempre continúo recibiendo y como me mantengo feliz porque está en mis manos el dar, todo lo que recibo es betún en el pastel, es como tener un vaso de agua lleno al que le sigues poniendo y el agua se empieza a desbordar, lo cual me permite darselo a alguien que lo necesite más que yo y así me la voy pasando.

Hoy hay que cambiar esa vieja forma de pensar, no estamos solos, somos uno y nuestros actos se reflejan en todos de alguna u otra manera. Ya quedamos que no existe ayer y menos mañana, así que o lo hacemos HOY o corremos el riesgo de que la mayoría no lo hará jamás.

"Hay que hacerlo HOY porque es lo único que HAY!"

"If she's amazing, she won't be easy. If she's easy, she won't be amazing.
 If she's worth it, you won't give up. If you give up, you're not worthy...
Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you; 
you just gotta find the ones worth suffering for".
~Bob Marley~

Abrazos con amor a todos xoxo

Monday, December 31, 2012

It's Just Another New Years Eve...

For those of you who are spending New Year's Eve alone at home,

"Don't look so sad, it's not so bad you know.
It's just another night, that's all it is,
It's not the first, it's not the worst you know,
We've come through all the rest, we'll get through this.

We've made mistakes, but we've made good friends too.
Remember all the nights we spent with them?
And all our plans, who says they can't come true?
Tonight's another chance to start again.

It's just another New Year's Eve,
Another night like all the rest.
It's just another New Year's Eve,
Let's make it the best.
It's just another New Year's Eve,
It's just another Auld Lang Syne,
But when we're through this New Year
You'll see, WE'LL be just fine.

We're not alone, we've got the world you know.
And it won't let us down, just wait and see.
And we'll grow old, but think how wise we'll grow.
There's more you know, it's only New Year's Eve. 

It's just another New Year's Eve,
Another night like all the rest.
It's just another New Year's Eve,
Let's make it the best.
It's just another New Year's Eve,
It's just another Auld Lang Syne,
But when we're through this New Year
You'll see, WE'LL be just fine. 

~Barry Manilow~

Happy New Year everyone, I'm rooting for you ;)

Hugs xoxo


Friday, December 28, 2012

Re-inventing my life every day...

I was asked to translate my last post so for those of you who requested it here it is with a few minor changes...

Every morning when I wake up after doing various things that have become a lovely routine like sharing some ‘mates’ and ‘tostadas con manteca’ which is the way he refers to buttered toast with a great friend of mine and walk my little Dieguito, I begin to review and feel an enormous sense of gratitude for what I accomplished, created, lived, experienced, learned, taught, helped, asked for help, won, lost, gave and received the day before, making sure that way that all my efforts to live a full day weren’t in vain, and then I proceed to re-invent my day again. 

Taking responsibility for my own happiness and not wanting to stagnate is not a simple task, since it requires motivation, discipline, mental, emotional and physical work constantly, while trying to maintain at all costs a balanced life.

We are beginning a “New Era” so much has been said about this for so many years, speculations about what will happen, but in reality none of us knows what awaits us until it actually happens, I made so many plans and speculations of what I would be doing on this day and reality was very different. I decided to go at the last moment to a relatively remote area surrounded by nature where there is a Geyser that spits out  intensely hot water with a huge amount of minerals  that have relaxing and curative properties.

What will happen to me next year, or in a decade? How could I possibly know that if I don’t know what I will be doing in the next ten minutes.

The 21st of December was a very important date for all humanity and I was alone, secluded at a hot mineral water pool resort, ate mexican food, shared some time with strangers who became friends, watched a movie on my computer, wrote and read a bit and then the 22nd came along and I was re-inventing my day all over again.

May your days be filled with hope, love, balance and harmony.

Happy New Year 2013 everyone! I'm rooting for y'all! 

Hugs with  p

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Re-inventando mi vida cada día...

Cada mañana cuando me despierto, después de hacer varias cosas que se han convertido en una linda rutina como compartir unos mates y 'tostadas con manteca' como les llama él al pan tostado con mantequilla con un gran amigo y sacar a caminar a mi Dieguito, me pongo a repasar y sentir un enorme agradecimiento por lo que logré crear, vivir, aprender, enseñar, ayudar, pedir ayuda, ganar, perder, dar y recibir el día anterior, asegurando así que todos mis esfuerzos por vivir un día pleno no fueron en vano y después prosigo a re-inventar nuevamente mi día.

El tomar la responsabilidad por mi propia felicidad y el no querer estancarme no es una tarea sencilla, ya que requiere de motivación, disciplina y de trabajo mental, emocional y físico constante, mientras trato de mantener a como de lugar un balance en mi vida.

Estamos a punto de entrar en una 'Nueva Era' por muchos años se ha hablado y especulado acerca de éste día, pero la realidad es que ninguno sabremos que nos espera hasta que suceda, yo hice muchos planes y especulaciones de lo que estaría haciendo y la realidad es muy distinta. Decidí al último momento venirme por unos días a un lugar relativamente remoto rodeado de naturaleza en el que se encuentra un Geiser con aguas con propiedades relajantes y curativas.

Que será de mi el año que entra, o en una década? como saberlo si ni siquiera se lo que haré en 10 mins. como ayer en la noche que decidí levantarme de la cama calientita después de ver una película, ponerme el traje de baño a pesar de que hacía bastante frío e irme a una de las muchas albercas que hay aquí, subí una pequeña colina a una alberca en la que no había estado antes y noté a un grupo de jóvenes, a pesar de que mi deseo era el de estar sola decidí entrar con ellos y después de varias horas de una conversación y una compañía que verdaderamente gocé con esos chicos y a quienes prometí mencionar en mi artículo =) regresé a mi cuarto con la enorme satisfacción de haberlos conocido.

Mañana es una fecha importante para la humanidad, 21 de Diciembre del 2012, y yo estaré en alguna de las albercas con agua calientita, o comiendo algún platillo mexicano, tomandome unos mates o recibiendo un masaje, viendo una película, escribiendo o leyendo y llegará el 22 de Diciembre y nuevamente volveré a re-inventar mi día.

Que sus días estén siempre llenos de enseñanza, aprendizaje, amor, de balance y de armonía.

Felices Fiestas a TODOS!

Un abrazo con amor xoxo

Monday, December 17, 2012

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Faith is taking the first step...

"You may not be where you want to be, 
but that has NOTHING to do with your future.
~ Zig Ziglar 1926-2012 ~

Hugs xoxo

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Everywhere I look, I find LOVE...

Would you believe I took this photograph off my patio floor?
My cute little 'Wish Granters' (is there such a word?) jajaja
All I know is that LOVE IS EVERYWHERE, you just have to be ready and able to give it!

My love to everyone out there.

Hugs xoxo


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

I just wanted to remind 'YOU'...

"Shake the burden of seeing your baby steps as a necessary discipline.

See them instead as optional dance moves in life's conga line, that spark miracles, open floodgates, and lead to the near effortless manifestation of 'DREAMS'."

~ The Universe ~

Hugs xoxo